Welcome To My New Life Fighting A Disease I've Never Heard Of Before....... Ankylosing Spondylitis

  When will I learn not to overdo myself at work? I know I have to pace myself. The reason I am working my current job is so I can have a very flexible schedule. I have experienced the fatigue and pain from pushing my body.   I know how my body responds, so why did I push myself yesterday? I was looking forward to a 3 day weekend with my husband and kids. I worked about 30 minutes yesterday morning and was feeling very weak and tired. I tried to focus on one area at a time, hoping this would help me get through the tired, weak feeling. I sat down a few times to rest. I kept thinking I would complete one more area and then I'd return today to finish the job. However, the thought of having to leave my husband and kids a second time in our weekend, made me want to finish while I was there.   By the time I finished and returned home, I was so weak I had to sit in my car in our driveway to rest. I physically could not walk inside when I arrived at home. Also, I had sweated...

  Last Wednesday I did something I have not did in years. Two of my children and I went for a long, leisurely walk in our town. We don't live inside our town limits but we are there at least 2-3 times a week. However, on those weekly trips it's for business or grocery shopping. Those trips are focused on the task at hand. We don't take time to enjoy the beauty of our little town.   I think I am not alone in feeling life gets too busy. I know when I was working full time, all I did was get up, go to work, get off work, come home, fix supper, spend a couple hours with my family and then do it all over the next day. There were days my son would have an after school activity and that made the day even more hectic. Also with my ankylosing spondylitis there were days where I came home literally exhausted and went straight to bed. I am fortunate my mother lives beside me so on my worst days she would fix my son supper. On some of those days when I was overwhelmed with fatigue, I...

  If you follow my blog, you know I haven't written in a while. Life has been a sort of whirlwind for the last few months. I have felt drained and fatigued trying to keep up.      In March, I began searching for some type of supplemental work to help our family. I was denied social security disability due to not having enough work credits. However, being denied benefits based on work credits does not mean I am not disabled. That's where the system is unfair, I am not able to work due to my ankylosing spondylitis, hence I am not able to earn enough work credits. It's just one of those crazy scenarios. Our family was struggling between buying groceries or paying for my medical bills. When you only have $11 to spend on groceries, you have to get creative.   I knew based on my previous job, it didn't matter whether I sat or stood. I would experience stiffness and pain with my ankylosing spondylitis. I also had tried only working half days but still suffered a...